.....from this hypocrisy & pretence......
What if this isn't everything it should be????

I'm not even sure how I feel....!! !!

Maybe somewhere, someone loves me so much;
He'd share his life with me and my whole life he'd touch;
Maybe somewhere, someone longs to hear me call;
Or maybe, yes, I realized, maybe there is none at all...

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Evanescent Friendships...

| Friday, June 5, 2015

I know it's strange how we gel with strangers. It's surprising how friendly we get with someone who added us on facebook, but feel awkward in calling up a friend in the same city.

As far as I'm concerned, I don't know if this is something only I am going through, but I hardly have friends in 'my city'...!

Reason? My closest friends shifted to abroad or different cities of India, and the 'friends' left out here, are either not interested in meeting me or they are too busy. Either ways, they don't want to see me.

Few others are so busy in packing their bags for going to abroad that it seems they are packing bags since the time we last talked and they would soon fly away to abroad...

So now, as weird as it seems, I've friends 1000 kms away or even farther but not on the same street.

Married friends obviously have their husband to look after.
Other single friends are busy looking for a groom or bride.
Still others are busy with the person they are 'in a relationship' with...

Now where am I in the lives of all these people ??


It sucks!!

It's not that I don't try to keep in touch, or I pushed them away.
It's just that they got busy and then my self-respect/ego- whatever you take it as, comes in my way.

For example, I was literally craving for a dinner outside...
I messaged a friend, asking if he had time.

He assured me that we would meet up during the weekend, but he never messaged again before 15 days...

Another instance - A friend asked me for Fast and Furious 7 , but I guess she forgot about it soon after she asked...!!

So this is why I think online friends are much better. The only way they disappoint you is by not being online or the longing you have to meet them.

Atleast they don't give false hopes that we would meet and then vanish for days together, despite living a few minutes away.

I feel stranded at an island where I've "contacts" in my address book , but no friends...

I have phone numbers of 'people living in my city' but no one to actually call up and hang out with.

It feels like all those friendships that I thought would last forever, ended even before the second half of my life could actually begin...

.... If you've 'friends' you can look up to, you're lucky...

If you've friends who would say "Come on yar, let's meet up" and be at your doorstep in a few minutes, never let them go...

Not having good friends can cripple you in a way nothing else can, and you would always feel that you're not good enough, even though you have tried your best to save those evanescent friendships...!! :)

2 opinions:

{ Shubham Singh } at: Saturday, June 06, 2015 said...

Don't give'em that space which they don't deserve. Let your own veins free to ponder within yourself, more than usual. Life will be a bit easier! :)

{ Apurva Joshi } at: Saturday, June 06, 2015 said...

Beautifully written. And yes, its the same with me, too. Bhagwaan bhala kare online friends ka. ;)


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