Keblinger

Keblinger
.....from this hypocrisy & pretence......
What if this isn't everything it should be????

I'm not even sure how I feel....!! !!

Maybe somewhere, someone loves me so much;
He'd share his life with me and my whole life he'd touch;
Maybe somewhere, someone longs to hear me call;
Or maybe, yes, I realized, maybe there is none at all...

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Who do you select???? Part 3

| Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Read Who do you select Part 1 and 2 HERE!
It is not a sequel of "Who do you select". Part 1,2 and 3 are INDEPENDENT posts. This post IS NOT A CONTINUATION of either of them!!!!
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Anay and Aditya...
I was kinda lost between the two "A"s of my life...
Anay was my boyfriend so I was supposed to be with him,but Aditya was the one who made everything alright by just BEING THERE!
His presence brought a smile to my face.His phone call made me forget Anay.It wasn't right.I know it isn't right. . . . . . . .
But as long as Anay was around, nothing seemed wrong...

There was a time when I was ready to fight for Anay.I had fought with all obstacles to be with him.I was even ready to confront my family to spend my life with him.It was not that time any more.

Aditya ruined everything.He came along and spread so many smiles and gave me so many moments of happiness that Anay was very much put aside.I did not care for Anay anymore.I had turned into a selfish girl who cared only about herself and her smile.That was perhaps because I did not have to fight with anyone to be with Aditya.I never had to persuade him to be with me.He was always keen to meet me.He insisted that I should stay with him.He knew I was with Anay and he had even warned me regarding that.He had told me that I would forget Anay once I become friends with him but I had never paid heed to his warning.Anay had started to feel my indifference.He was drifting apart from me.I knew that. Nevertheless Anay did not matter any more!!!!!

He had made me wait.He had made me cry.I had to literally plead to him to be with me.There was a time when Anay did not care a damn about me.It was not that I was taking a revenge of that cold behaviour.I just did not feel like seeing Anay anymore.He had gone a lot too far from me than I had from him

There were moments when I introspected and found myself guilty of breaking someone's heart,playing with Anay's feelings,lying to myself and I found myself spoiling Aditya's life too.I felt like going upto Aditya and telling him to go away from me and Anay FOREVER but it couldn't happen.It wasn't so easy.Yes,I still loved Anay deep down 'cause he also had given me some of the most amazing moments in life.He had completely owned 3 years of my life.Aditya on the other hand was with me since 6 months.However, there were certain other things which made me even more distant from Anay!

Aditya called me up more often than Anay did.Anay had other priorities which he put before me.Aditya always had me as his NUMBER 1 priority no matter what!!!!

If I could not get sleep at night,Aditya was always there for me!!!
If anything was bothering me,it was Aditya I could look up to!!!
Anay just claimed to love me.He hardly proved anything of that kind.
I wished to change Anay and start anew but Anay had his own terms to live his life.I could never ever change that.Aditya always cared about my smile more than anything else.

I would rather prefer apologizing to Anay and asking him to forget me instead of losing ADITYA for Anay.

I don't blame Anay for anything but this is how things are.I don't love him anymore the way I did and the way he expects me to!!!!

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-----------------To be continued on 14th February------------------------



P.S. You can drop in your suggestions for the girl...  and for Anay/Aditya as well :D :D :D
Note: It is purely FICTIONAL and if it resembles your life it is a COINCIDENCE ONLY!!!!
:)

4 opinions:

{ chirag } at: Thursday, January 19, 2012 said...

nice story
i didn't like the girls decision to love aditya as he is showing more care
may be vo dhong kar raha ho

{ Where thoughts are Word$ } at: Sunday, January 22, 2012 said...

Chirag, Could be quite possible! :)


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{ Smita } at: Monday, February 06, 2012 said...

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Regards
Smita.

{ Where thoughts are Word$ } at: Monday, February 06, 2012 said...

Thanks a lot Smita!! :) :) :)

 

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