Keblinger

Keblinger
.....from this hypocrisy & pretence......
What if this isn't everything it should be????

I'm not even sure how I feel....!! !!

Maybe somewhere, someone loves me so much;
He'd share his life with me and my whole life he'd touch;
Maybe somewhere, someone longs to hear me call;
Or maybe, yes, I realized, maybe there is none at all...

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This feeling of HATRED!!

| Monday, July 6, 2009
I hate him.
I hate him for being a mistake in my "PERFECT" life.
I hate myself for letting him hurt me.
I hate him for making me cry.
I hate myself for those tears I cried.
I hate him for flirting & pretending.
I hate myself for trusting everything he said.
I hate myself for the tears which he made me cry.
I hate him for showing me dreams.
I hate myself for actually believing in them.
I hate him for playing games in the name of love.
I hate myself for being a part of it.
I hate him for loving someone else.
I hate myself for loving him.
I hate her for loving him.
I hate myself for being so selfish.
I hate him for leaving me for her.
I hate myself for wanting him even after that.
I hate him for all those lies.
I hate myself for not being worthy enough of the truth.
I hate myself for having hopes & dreams.
I hate him for crushing them.
I hate him for destroying the purity of the word "love".
I hate him for strangling the essence of "commitment".
I hate him for insulting the depth of the feeling called "love".
I hate myself for praying to have him in my life.
I hate destiny for having different plans,
But most of all I hate him for breaking my heart every time I look BACK!!




I hate YOU...but I'm pretty sure you're happy wherever you ever,with whoever that girl is.I don't have a right to say anything to the girl.I just hope everyone gets what he/she truly deserves and I genuinely pray for JUSTICE!

Justice to the one who loved so true & also to the one who crushed her love,hopes & wishes.

Sometimes I think maybe I would have broken someone's heart in my past life,in my previous incarnation...That's why I paid a price in my present life!!!!! :
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...Not only him,I HATE certain other people too ,who I don't even know but their irritating behaviour makes me hate them sooooo much...More about them later!!
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And with this I'm letting him go and setting myself free from all those animosities.
It was my choice to be unhappy,to be broken-hearted and grieve over him but I promise myself I shall never ever look back.

I know I've promised many many times,but this time it's for the last time.I shall be happy and make sure my heart heals....
:)

It's okay if you won't comment! :)

It's pure reality-THE BITTER REALITY and I won't mind if you walk away without commenting.

Note:-I'm not being rude.This is the way I'm! :(

7 opinions:

{ Arjun } at: Monday, July 06, 2009 said...

kind of very relatable... :)

Going through this phase is like.. such pain isnt it.. :)

Cheers..!!
Arjun

{ Bala } at: Tuesday, July 07, 2009 said...

Hey,

Its really a hard phase to get through in life..

But once u are out of this, it would have made you thousand times stronger both mentally and morally!

Hope u get out of this soon!

Be Happy!

Cheers,
Bala.
http://balasrini.wordpress.com/

{ Dr.Kumar } at: Friday, July 10, 2009 said...

Hey good one disha......
This is a piece of fiction rt????
Nd the above person is my cousin.....
Nd a small alteration to ur poem.....
the flow of the poem is a line with hate him nd a line with hate myself in alternative sequences..... but in ur 7th line the continuity is lost....
just a small alteration.....
Ur poem is awesome./.....

{ Dr.Kumar } at: Friday, July 10, 2009 said...

also check out my work...

http://drkumar89.blogspot.com/2009/07/your-smile-makes-magic.html

{ Adeline } at: Saturday, July 11, 2009 said...

it was awesome..i liked d way its written :)

{ Where thoughts are Word$ } at: Saturday, July 11, 2009 said...

@ Arjun

Thanks for dropping by! :)

@ Bala

Thank you !! Do visit again!

@ Dr. Rajkumar

Take it as fiction/real :)

I leave it upto your perception!

^_^


@ Adeline

Thank you so much.

:)
Hope to see you here again! :)

{ avegail } at: Tuesday, August 11, 2009 said...

i got stuck to this stage of life for a decade.. =) but now, i have been healed.. i am still single and he just got married.. =)

i am very happy where i am now.. but it took a long time.. i tried so hard to move on -- i lived one day at a time.. i hope you get better everyday.. =)

this is a good entry. =)

 

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