Somewhere in the midst of all those innocent conversations,those laughs,those smiles,those moments of sharing,you fall in love......
Those words of care & concern,
Doodling silly hearts around his name in all the pages of a book,
Writing his last name with your first,Suddenly bursting out laughing on being reminded of his joke,
Loving your name when he says it and adoring the nickname that he gave you inspite of being against giving nick names,
Those wishes of being with him all the time,
Thinking about him each day,
Missing him more and more with each passing hour,
Hoping to see him again as soon as possible,
Hearing his favourite song and making it your own favourite,
Adding his favourite colour to the list of your favourite colours,
Trying to find out ways to impress him,
Keep staring at the screen of the cell phone waiting for his call,
Praying to see his name at the sound of each call and message,"X is online now" on yahoo messenger or getting a notification on gtalk of someone getting online,
Thinking what will you say if he calls up,
Wishing to read his email when the message "1 new mail" pops out,
Wanting to talk to him all day throughout,
Waiting for his call,Waiting for him to get online,Waiting for just one "Hi" from him----
Somehow starting to enjoy the hours of the wait,not knowing whether he's worth the wait,not bothering whether he feels the same,not understanding whether it's love or just "FRIENDSHIP".
Unaware of the fast running heartbeats on hearing his voice,those unsaid words,those unexpressed feelings and those days of unrealized love....
Suddenly time changes....
Calls cease,priorities shift and the depth of relationship starts getting shallow gradually But you cannot let go of his memories.
You start to realize the feeling of "love" but it's too late then.
You still wish to hold on and keep consoling yourself that he would call.
At times, trying to convince yourself,you don't care,
Fighting with yourself every moment that he cares,
Asking friends -ways to forget him,
Suddenly starting to miss him so much that you feel like crying,
Regretting the moments you were together......
But all this doesn't seem to help.
It only makes life worse and you feel depressed,lonely,ignored and unloved.
Even amidst a crowd, you feel alone hoping to see him somewhere and going upto him and asking him what went wrong.
Wondering if he's fine,searching for an excuse to talk to him but not being able to gather the courage,desperately longing to re-establish that relationship,pining to instill in him the same feelings as you've for him and wanting to ask him those "never-asked" questions but knowing somewhere in the corner of your heart that you won't be able to handle the answer and it's better to leave some questions unanswered....
Hopelessly craving for those moments when you were together,Wishing for that one chance to tell him how much you miss him,Repenting not being able to express your feelings,Trying to run away from the truth that he doesn't care....
Inspite of all this, still waiting to receive that special call,waking up at the middle of the night with a start to check for that "one call" from the most important person of your life and inspite of the broken heart , still praying that he's happy wherever he is!
You finally get over him and make yourself understand the rules of destiny,the probability of finding someone better and don't regret it any longer.
Someone helps you forget him,loves you more than you could ever imagine and returns all the lost happiness and gives you genuine smiles-A reason to live once again.
Someone who listened patiently to all your situations and always helped you to cheer up....
Someone who you could trust,depend upon and most importantly he's the someone who taught you the meaning of love,how to love and accepted you as you're!!!!!!
He's the special someone who created that magic of love in you.
Finally you realize that you were never a loser and may be some things are not really meant to be.
So to all the people out there,who think their love is one-sided-----
Don't be upset 'cause it's not you who'll lose.
The loser will always be him.
Just wait for that special someone who'll stand by you,no matter what and love you despite everything,never ever leave you half-way in the journey of life, make your life a really memorable trip and won't make you cry even on the saddest occasions and if at all you cry , he'll always be there to wipe those tears.......
A special post...!!!! - Around February 1988.... The first breath of my life... The first heart beat of my life... The first cell was formed in me... 21st November 1988..... The fir...
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